Hmm...
Hi.
Yeah.

It's been about 3 weeks since summer ended. It turned out quite depressing for me, though. My granda died just a few days before summer started, and my whole family were mourning from then on, and still are without any hopes for stopping soon. I must say, the family all getting together for something after about 10 years was okay, but he wasnt there so everyone was all depressed. Then, when my family from Australia and London were in at his stuff, claiming what they thought was rightfully 'theirs' or just chucking anything they thought was cool into their suitcases. This caused an argument throughout the whole lot of them and sometimes i actually think my familys falling apart, and blaming my granda for it. We knew he would die sometime, but it still came as a shock, even when he'd been deteriorating under their noses for atleast 30 years.

Moving on from the depressing stuff, my eyes are watering -_-

I seem to have come to an understanding of myself. I've thought, up until now, that i was an extremely complex person. That was until people i dont even know discovered 'Indigos'. Some people might have already heard about it, but i don't know anyone else in this category. Anyway, this is directly from here: [link] and i believe half of these facts describe me quite a bit.

"Have strong self esteem, connection to source
Know they belong here until they are told otherwise
Have an obvious sense of self
Have difficulty with discipline and authority
Refuse to follow orders or directions
Find it torture to waiting in lines, lack patience
Get frustrated by ritual-oriented systems that require little creativity
Often see better ways of doing thing at home and at school
Are mostly nonconformists
Do not respond to guilt trips, want good reasons
Get bored rather easily with assigned tasks
Are rather creative
Are easily distractible, can do many things at once
Display strong intuition
Have strong empathy for others or NO empathy
Develop abstract thinking very young
Are gifted and/or talented, highly intelligent
Are often identified or suspected of having ADD or ADHD, but can focus when they want to
Are talented daydreamers and visionaries
Have very old, deep, wise looking eyes
Have spiritual intelligence and/or psychic skills
Often express anger outwardly rather than inwardly and may have trouble with rage
Need our support to discover themselves
Are here to change the world - to help us live in greater harmony and peace with one another and to raise the vibration of the planet"

It was my mum who found the website, and, wow: it fits her too.

I also found, from the same site, that i'm 'Overexcitable' *cough* as most of my friends have noticed.

Also, since finding it; I've been feeling it more. I have been feeling more mature somehow, and that I am important, no matter how many people try and make me feel like i'm nothing..


*twitch* if you've took the time to read this, i fucking love you